09 Oct

Twelve weeks in and ………… I’m still waiting.

Still waiting for the commode shower chair, still waiting for a hoist sling, still waiting on my property completion, still waiting business organisations to update my address, still waiting for people to do what they said they would.

I’m jaded, very jaded.

The ‘here to help’ organisations are the ones who are failing me, dehumanising and degrading me, and all they offer is patronising hollow apologies.

Someone asked if I felt settled. I’m not really sure what that means, I am used to the new environment and have cobbled new routines, I’m getting used to the noises and sudden interruptions. I’m getting used to never knowing what day of the week it is or which carer will appear when I press the button, but does that make me settled.

All my possessions are around me, pictures displayed (okay I haven’t hung the wall ones yet, still pondering) but I still have moments when I think ‘I need that book’ or ‘I’ll watch that dvd’ or ‘that craft item is just …’, then remember that that item was gotten rid of.

There was a ‘lovely’ meeting with yet another Social Worker who has taken over my case. When she visited my gander gandered and that tiny flickering spark of me sort of ever so politely let rip. I reminded her that I’ve had no contact since Christmas, no reply to emails, no help with the forms, no help with the move, no help with the adjusting (I have had help, and I am extremely grateful to those who volunteered), I wanted to make the point that as an organisation, alongside OT, the systems are failing.

Now don’t be shocked, but as we’ve entered autumn with the (supposedly) cooler days I have been doing a spot of yarn twiddling. A friend tagged me in a post about glow in the dark wool – I know – which sent my down the Google rabbit hole of ghost patterns, that lead to some yarn being purchased and ‘Howl’ the ghost was crocheted into a new topper for her gear stick 👻

I’ve also made a few ‘mask mates’ for the carers. It felt nice to give back some too.

Just four weeks and a few days until BFF comes to play, I mean stay. We both crave some normality, some familiar, some escape, some laughter.

So I’ve been quiet because I’m still stuck, waiting for those here-to-help organisations and it looks like being another couple of months before the snail creeps an inch closer to any goal ….. so don’t go sprinkling salt anywhere just in case 😉


Posted by on October 9, 2022 in General, Grumble, Life


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6 responses to “Groundhogged

  1. menhir1

    October 9, 2022 at 7:32 pm

    The salt sprinkle might be a good idea if it becomes icy.

    Like you, I despair. Hubs was saying the other day that the country is going to hell in a handcart. I guess it’s a refined way of describing the situation.

    Glow in the dark yarn….with Hallow-‘een nearby, you could be in great demand. Just thought, your knitting needles could become part of your decor with the glowing yarn wound round them . They could either be poked into a ball of the same type of yard, glow in a jam jar, or a vase with a string of LED lights. Oooh, my imagination is flowing away with me. Maybe BFF will spend time glowing with you.


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    • AnneMarie

      October 9, 2022 at 7:53 pm

      Lol, the glow isn’t so bright sadly. My carer held it up to the light bulb and it then glowed some.


      • menhir1

        October 10, 2022 at 9:18 pm

        Glow that doesn’t in the dark?! Whoever Heard- if glowing under light…,sounds a bit like trying to successfully boil an exposed egg in its shell in a microwave.

        Does this mean your gear stick handle cover would have to sit over a lit up gear stick handle? Xxxxx

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      • AnneMarie

        October 10, 2022 at 9:20 pm

        I’m not sure, I think it depends on the heat/light effect. I haven’t tried sitting on it to warm it up and see if it glows then.


      • menhir1

        October 10, 2022 at 9:23 pm

        Maybe worth a try!!!😌

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  2. snowbird

    October 10, 2022 at 4:00 pm

    Your treatment makes me want to scream, it’s beyond frustrating!!! I do hope things get sorted…..soon! Loving the sound of that yarn. Thank goodness you have bff visit to look forward

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