Could, Should, Can’t

12 May

Well that didn’t take long ……. the vim and vigour after my holibobs staycation with the BFF has dog gone and evaporated. The lovely cuddly warmth of accomplishment after getting the website updated has fizzled. I’m back to disenthused apathy.

There are things I ‘should’ maybe do, like, send in my latest book review (oops that’s supposed to be kind of hush hush) I can only do it at the desktop because my iPad is too old to run Word. I should be finishing the latest blanket as I’d like to start the next pattern, or I should empty, tidy and sort bedside draw, put away stuff not put away. But well, meh, its Saturday, the world won’t explode if I don’t.

There are things I ‘could’ do, like, resort the photos on the computer, there’s the letter to my hospital about my five months overdue appointment, start the video rework for the website. But well, you know.

Now there are some, many even, who would love to be as unbusy as me, I’d quite like to be as busy as some. In a romanticised way I would have loved to have gotten up from my bed, enjoyed a refreshing shower, straightened the bedroom, cleaned the kitchen, and washed the dishes before taking a jaunty saunter to Subway for lunch. Then browse a shop or two to find a box to put my footwear in beneath my desk, maybe find a new top or picked up some fresh raspberries from the grocers. Come home and sit at my desk, write an email or three while listening to some tunes before making my bolognese and settling to an evenings tv entertainment. But I cannot, the only thing I will physically manage, with a double dose of struggle and concentration is throw together the bolognese. 

Is it the human’s lot to always want things different and rarely be content with how things are?

I’ve often remarked that occupation needs a necessity. Doing something without a purpose, a need, a deadline, an outside expectation just becomes a time filler and when you have nothing but time to fill there’s no drive to strive.

Eek, that turned a bit deep and melancholy!  


Posted by on May 12, 2018 in General, Life


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8 responses to “Could, Should, Can’t

  1. Bushka

    May 12, 2018 at 4:38 pm

    Too many ‘Shoulds’ and ‘Coulds’ make Jack and Jill slaves…… Careful.
    Love and Hugs, Anne. ❤

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  2. menhir1

    May 12, 2018 at 9:47 pm

    Melancholy….not really. It was deep reflection. Quite a healthy occupation it is at times.

    Nah, Do what you want to do, when you find you want to do whatever it is you think is worth a go. What’s the betting that, apart from the saucy bit, your book review will come high on the list of ‘let’s have a go’.

    As a matter of fact, some of the ‘To Do’ things you mention, are not short tasks, in particular the photo re-sort, I have similar sort of digital job that hasn’t been started in any meaningful way. it might take years, depending how I approach it, if, I ever do! (sigh) The mountain does need a good firm edit. It has been easier taking the pix than being disciplined with the cataloging – that sounds grand – maybe, it’s something you learn over time, a long time in my case. Then there’s the every-day filing of correspondence both digitally and in paper form. Who was it who said we would become a paperless society. Hardly! Every organisation that operates wants tangible proof and paper originals, which they are good at losing. Ooh I could go on……


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  3. deacongill

    May 13, 2018 at 1:26 pm

    I sympathise – I need a deadline to make me get things done (otherwise known as a kick up the backside) and I don’t have your challenges, so I’ve got no excuses. I hate that feeling of ‘ought’ and ‘should’ – it makes me ratty. The phrase I like best is ‘beware the hardening of the oughteries’! Hugs xx

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    • AnneMarie

      May 13, 2018 at 1:47 pm

      Exactly, without deadlines, third party expectations etc it is all to easy to really embrace the mañana attitude, and when like me there are hours and hours available with no ‘need’, it’s counter productive (is that the phrase I’m looking for?)

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