This morning I laid comfortably in my warm snug pit and mused, what to do, what to do, what to do …. I need something to do, something that I can do by myself, at home, at my own pace. Sounds something simple to find, right? Wrong!
You see said item has to have that thing about it that drives you to continue, has a reason, merit or purpose. I could make another scarf but why when it will sit in a bag for decades or be haggled over for a couple of pound coins at the car boot sale, where as if someone arrived with yarn and said “Can you make this for me?” I’d would say yes, give me a couple of months [can only ‘do’ for 60/90 minutes a day before muscles give out]. I have long thought about some kind of on-line course, but again, why, when at the end of it, it leads to nothing more than hours filled, there is no reward or accomplishment. I thought about becoming a better reviewer on Amazon and GoodReads with all the reading I do, but again, my mind flagged, the passion was not there to push forward.
In some ways I am missing the business I ran for years, I do not miss the stress nor the annoyances, but I do miss the organising, the working within deadlines, the getting things done -ness of it all. Undoubtedly this is a symptom of my life, bodily I may be weak and unable but mentally I still crave the stimulation, the drive and the purpose – cruel things, diseases. If someone came with a box of receipts and asked me to put them in date order, I would be in seventh heaven but I cannot be arsed to put my own bills in my own organised folder.
Anyway – there are chores to be seen to, jobs requiring attention.
- Factory reset old Mac and contact recyclers
- Wade through desk paperwork left over the past three weeks
- Begin turf out sort of draws, cupboard, boxes etc [be ruthless]
- Put Aberdeen photos and stories in the book
- Find photo for new frame
- WebSite update
- Finish crochet shawl
- Write the letters
Right, I must move, I have been sitting at this desk for too long and getting up is not a ‘succeed at first attempt’ option anymore.