As the weather improves I find I am feeling my confinement more than during the winter months [I know, I am never satisfied]. As I sit here the sun is shinning, the blue sky is smattered with a few fluffy comfy clouds, the tree is full of blossom and even the occasional chirp of a bird [other than crawing seagull] sounds happy.
Today is the sort of day that I would have sprung up with the alarm, washed my hair, dressed in clothes other than slopping around the house attire, got into my beloved blue car and with suitable rocking music blaring out, would have motored up to the City. I’d have been seated in my best friends kitchen waiting for the coffee she offered as we gabbled and conversed, she may have been doing laundry or clearing out the fridge. We may have gone to do her grocery shop, or run errands in the city or taken child 1 or 2 to friends, project supplies shopping or where ever. After jobs were done we may have sat outside or jaunted off somewhere, we may have watched a film together. I would have been transported and involved in another world.
But I no longer drive and she no longer lives that close.
I miss it.
I miss that time.
Today I am trying to get some chores and jobs done but am too easily distracted. Coming to the blog site was a distraction from balancing the cheque book and paying the credit card. Playing a silly game will likely distract me from emptying the dryer. Staring blankly at nothing will distract me from filing away the post and papers. Then I will be angry at myself for not getting the stuff done and allowing myself to distract myself.
A disability can take away huge things from a person, but it can be the little insignificant things that are felt the most.
Tonight I am going to watch the DVD The Soloist – the Jamie Foxx and Robert Downey Jnr film about the life of Nathaniel Anthony Ayers it is based on a true story and is something I have wanted to watch since it was first trailered in 2009.
Happy weekend everyone