Gloom descending …

I can feel it coming, the despondency of winter.  It starts with that chill of the air when you throw back the duvet cover, it is no longer refreshing but biting, it quickly adds the dullness of light as you surface from your slumbers, you think it is 5.30am but really it is 9.30, add the necessity to turn on lights as the grey skies seem to suck any natural light brave enough to attempt appearance … and there you have it, the portent that winter is closing in.

Although I have never been tested or diagnosed, I do wonder if I am someone who suffers from the ‘seasonally affected disorder’ otherwise colloquially known as the winter blues [which is a bit of a man flu term really].  I struggle more and more to fight a misery mood, the lack of light makes me feel drained and lethargic, sleep restful proper sleep becomes a lusted for luxury .. and I am tetchy, short tempered and generally low on energy, enthusiasm or will.

Hence my tardiness of blogging [I know, you didn’t notice any difference, lol]

My September tasks scored a 75% success.  I crocheted the black neck warmer for Tania and she bought a second one as a christmas gift.  I did not get the gloves done and I doubt I will even start them.  I have done the video to dvd’s, what a time consuming but rewarding job that was!  The shower chair has been sorted and ordered, but as it is rather bespoke it will not be with me until mid November.

For October I am not going to set tasks, for I know I shall not meet any of them, the gloom with the addition of unexplained pain is getting the better of me.  As you know I have a muscle disease and for some unfathomable reason I have pain where the collar bone meets the shoulder, also where my shoulder blade comes up to my neck when trying to sit/lay comfy and most curiously half way down my upper arm the muscle feels like a burning ball. I stopped crocheting and iPading for a week, thinking it was strain that way but it has made no difference.  I don’t like pain, especially when I cannot discover the reason for it.  when you cannot discover the cause, you cannot change your ways.  So I began crocheting again and it made no difference, just a little stress pain in my lower arm probably compensating for the upper arm pain.  I am working on some doggy attire to send to a dog foster charity in the USA, it is nice doing something a little different.

What else, what else, what else … … … nope, it is a sunny Sunday afternoon, one that ‘looks’ like a glorious July day but beware anyone opening the window!

ttfn